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Monday, June 15, 2009

Stepping out of my comfort zone!

So today I thought I would swim. I have the before mentioned suit that looks really great on me and I have actually worn it one other time at my parents house for a swim, but that to me doesn't really count - my parents loved me at 262 and they love me now - they don't care how I look in a bathing suit. Today was different, Iwanted to do laps... in a lap pool... at the gym. I put on said bathing suit and headed to the gym - on the way to the gym, my chest started getting tight and I started having trouble breathing. It got worse the closer to the gym I got and by the time I got there I was shaking and was terrified to get out of the car to go swim. All this because I would be seen in public in a bathing suit... I overcame the mini panic attack and went in the door of the gym and out to the pool - I took of the shirt I had worn over my suit and jumped into the lap pool as quickly as possible to avoid having people look at me. After my 30 mintues of laps (which felt so great by the way) I got out and I was tired and happy and I didn't care what people were looking at me or what they thought. I hope my next trip to the gym in my swimsuit will go smoother!

7 comments:

mak'n Changes said...

Good girl Bre! 30 minutes huh? Dang that's a long time!

~Tammy said...

Good for you stepping out of your comfort zone. That is something I do not do very often!

WOOHOO for 30 minutes!

Fatinah said...

your next trip will go smoother because you've already taken the hard step - out of your comfort zone! Well done!

jinxxxygirl said...

It will. Everytime you go it will get easier. Because i know EXACTLY how you feel... Jinx!

Heather said...

Oh, Bre. I can so totally relate! I still feel that way about stuff. A few years ago, I forced myself to buy all sleeveless tops for summer. For work. To wear in front of people. I was so scared to show my arms....much less anything else. I have stretchmarks ALLLLL over me. That summer of sleeveless tops was the BEST thing I ever forced myself to do, aside from losing all the weight. The next summer was facing my swimsuit demons. Now, I force myself to wear a bikini, as horrible as it looks on my lumpy, stretchmarked body. My tummy skin hangs over like an apron. It's so gross. You know what? Not one person has ever said a word to me about my fugly skin issues! And I so enjoy having an even tan all over my body. The only time I wear a one pc. anymore is when we go to the indoor pool. I live in fear that the top of a bikini will fly off of me when I go down the slide. So a 1 pc. is much needed there. lol

Anonymous said...

That's great! And I guarantee you that you are your body's worst critic. Everyone else is too busy worrying about what they look like to even bother critiquing you. I am sure you look great!

-Jess

Lisa Slow-n-Steady said...

way to make it happen. i don't like wearing a bathing suit either, so i usually swim in an athletic top and tri shorts. much more comfortable and less traumatic for me. consider that sometime maybe