Monday, June 15, 2009
Stepping out of my comfort zone!
So today I thought I would swim. I have the before mentioned suit that looks really great on me and I have actually worn it one other time at my parents house for a swim, but that to me doesn't really count - my parents loved me at 262 and they love me now - they don't care how I look in a bathing suit. Today was different, Iwanted to do laps... in a lap pool... at the gym. I put on said bathing suit and headed to the gym - on the way to the gym, my chest started getting tight and I started having trouble breathing. It got worse the closer to the gym I got and by the time I got there I was shaking and was terrified to get out of the car to go swim. All this because I would be seen in public in a bathing suit... I overcame the mini panic attack and went in the door of the gym and out to the pool - I took of the shirt I had worn over my suit and jumped into the lap pool as quickly as possible to avoid having people look at me. After my 30 mintues of laps (which felt so great by the way) I got out and I was tired and happy and I didn't care what people were looking at me or what they thought. I hope my next trip to the gym in my swimsuit will go smoother!